How is This Going to Work?!?!

2 babies. Under 2. What was I thinking?! OK, not really. But kind of! As I near the end of my second trimester, I'm becoming a little overwhelmed thinking about what's to come very soon. Second time around for me has been much different from my first. For starters, I have a baby that needs me all day every day, so I'm constantly moving and being needed, rather then sitting and daydreaming about my little monkey in my belly. It's also different in that I know what's coming. For me, this is worse. I think about the C-section all the time and I know how much pain and discomfort I'm going to be in for the first few weeks post-partum. I also worry about not being able to drive for the first couple weeks and especially about having an incision on my abdomen. Did I mention Kai loves to climb all over mommy? Ya, that freaks me out with a fresh cut on my tummy. I won't be able to lift him for several weeks. It's going to be a challenge that I'm just not looking forward to. I know I'm not the only one who has ever gone through anything like this before and I know I can get through it, but I just wish the whole incision issue weren't part of the picture.

 Another thing I often think about is what this new little boy is going to be like. Kai was not just an easy baby. He was the closest thing to perfect you can get. I remember in the hospital the nurses told us how mellow of a baby he was and how lucky we were. They couldn't believe that they had never heard him cry in the four days we were there. He nursed like a champ, he slept like a baby. He never switched his days and nights and he was on a schedule from day one and never really veered from it. Slept 8-10 hours before he was 2 months old and was ahead of all the developmental charts. Everyone told us the next one would be a monster, that we just couldn't be that lucky to get two angel babies. I wonder how true that is? It was so nice to get sleep when so many people told us we would never sleep when we had Kai. Chad and I often talk about the possibility of this new guy in our life being a fussy, whiny, not-in-to-sleeping little guy. If that's the case, life is going to get tough with a new baby and a toddler!! But I know God gives us only what we can handle, I'm hoping he doesn't push us to our max and that we will be able to fall into our rolls with ease as we did with Kai.

Besides the negative worries, we are definitely super excited to have two boys! Chad just told me last night how excited he was for Christmas this year. He can't wait to have two boys to play with and teach how to play sports, to camp with and (not totally cool with me yet) to wrestle with! I am especially excited to see Kai take on the roll of a big brother. He is such a gentle, kind, loving little man, and he kisses my belly all the time and points and says "baby brother" and then points at himself and says "big brother" ( in his language). I know he doesn't comprehend what is going on with my ever growing bump but something tells me he is going to be an awesome brother. For now, we are totally enjoying having Kai to ourselves and watching him learn and grow up! We are filling up the last few months of being a "trio" by multiple visits to Disneyland, family vacations, building a garden in the backyard and enjoying the sleep we can get now. Very soon we may, or may not, be getting less sleep... Only time will tell! Either way we are going to be happy and suck it up and most importantly, be so grateful for every breath our family takes.